Sunday, May 24, 2009

Not So Bad After All

So it may not be 90 degrees this weekend, but I'm home. And I like it that way. Yesterday I finished a really good book called "Good In Bed" by Jennifer Weiner, while the kids played outside. It should be a little warmer today. I'm sending the kids out now because they drive me crazy if I keep them in. Bobby's on his way home with my D&D coffee with the free Turbo Shot! I think I'll get some yardwork done & then we're grilling tonight.
Aaaahhhh. This is how I like it.

Thursday, May 21, 2009

90 Degrees and Working

The last time I had to work during the summer was when I was pregnant with Emma, 7 years ago. I am so not used to having 90 degree temps and spending the day away from my kids. I already miss reading my books on the swing in the back yard. I miss watching the kids using their imaginations to play around the yard. I miss walking to the library and searching the frog pond for tadpoles. I miss being able to take off for the beach whenever we want.

It's ok, though. I know deep down that what I am doing now is best for my family. And when all else fails, we still have the weekends!

And I hope that as they grow up they realize that their mom, as much as she wanted to be there for them all the time, did what she had to do to give them the best life possible. And I hope that they know how much she loves them.

Friday, May 15, 2009

Just Me

I'm sitting here alone and I love it. It's quiet, the kids are asleep, Bobby's at work, the lights are low, I have a glass of wine (second one), and I can sit here in silence enjoying my home and myself. For the first time ever I feel like I have a home that is all mine (ours). I come home from work and I don't want to leave. I look around knowing that everything here is here because I want it to be here. I am here because I want to be here. I truly am liking my life the way it is right now and there isn't much else that I could ask for.